Headed down to monks.
Got to meet lots of people.
Some people that I didn't meet for ages?
You? If sorry could heal everything,
whats the point of saying sorry,
nothing is changing even u said sorry.
I wun feel better,maybe u will, but i wun.
We shldn't be a couple, it wld be so nice,
the friends we used to be.
But what is done is already done.
Yesterday Garie send me home,
with nix,jay,sheryl and ollie.
Gawd, Sengkang and Yishun is a horror.
ITS SO BLOODY CONFUSING.
Got lost man. Its so deserted.
I want to go shopping man!!!
Mum's not giving me any cash.
I'm going to work next week.
ARGH. I dont want...
I want to shop,shop,shop,shop and shop!
/if memories could be so easily erased.
*flew by
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4:15 PM
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
My mother caught me smoking.
Its the end of the world?
She nag at me, one ear in one ear out.
I'm tired.
She is gonna tell the whole world that I'm smoking.
As she always does.
She is not gonna give me money anymore. She never did.
So i will never buy fagg or shop.
She doesn't want me to go out, in case I smoke.
She asked me to stay at my dad's house.
Its better.
I told her,"if im a drag for you, I die, if it makes u happy."
I can never be her perfect girl.
She wants me to cook? She wants me to work str8 after my O's.
She wants me to be the girl tt every mum wants.
I'm sorry. I can't.
I want to run away from home.
Away from judgement.
I know im in a wrong, but i tried my very best to be wat you want me to be?
You want me to turn straight, I'm straight and now u r complaining?
You want me to be in top class, I tried.
You want me to work, I worked.
You want me to shut up, I will.
You want me to die, I will.
Its better.
Nothing is going my way.
*flew by @
12:02 AM
Monday, December 01, 2003
I been out of luck,
I fell down, hurt my knee, backache, sore eyes
and now falling sick.
Nose been running, coughing like there is no tomorrow.
Gwad. I feel like dying.
Its the holidays, and I'm feeling so miserable.
My life seems so different. Unfamiliar with everything.
I need to find the meaning of life man.
I dunno wat routes im gonna go in my life.
So many things to complain, but whats the point now?
Make the best out of it?
I want to keep myself busy with other's life,
to forget my problems in my life.
Cheryl,why are you so miserable?
*flew by @
1:04 AM
