To this three special people that went missing in my life.
I haven been hanging out with you guys,
Now when I see you guys, I feel awkward. Weird.
Like there is a wall between all of us.
In the past, when i see you guys, I would want to hug u guys so tight,
but now, all i could do is just smile to you guys, didn't ask for more.
I miss hanging out with you guys, crapping, doing silly things together.
You said it was silly for me to think this way, but I do.
Felt like you guys doesn't want my company, haiz.
I don't know.
//friends.forever?
*flew by
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11:31 PM
Tuesday, July 22, 2003
Everyone thinks I'm alright.
I thought myself, things are doing fine.
But they are not.
Decided to tell u alll guys something,
I always blogged like as if my life is so depressed,
Like my gf is torturing me, giving me a bad time all the time.
But no.
I'm the one that is finding problems for myself to be depress.
She is perfect, she loves me, she was there for me.
She is all I ever wanted.
But me,
I Gave her problems.
Keep pushing the blame to her.
Driving her nuts.
I want pity from my friends.
Such a bitch I am.
I'm so stupid, I don't know wat to do all the time.
Scold me all you want, people, insult me,
I'm had a muscle pull on my neck, i can't turn much to the right side,
R E T R I B U T I O N
I'm smiling, nothing happen at all..
//best in me, blue??
*flew by @
11:40 PM
