izzit right or wrong?
I'm gonna follow my heart.
I'm feeling guilty.
Really guilty.
Dun know how to face her.
I came into the picture.
I ruin the picture.
-bah
I dun want to ask, but questions keep coming.
i wun ask anymore.
The truth hurts
*flew by
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1:42 PM
Wednesday, May 07, 2003
she has moved on.
she found someone else.
I have not move on.
i must move on.
i cannot lead her on.
i should not lead her on.
She is happy.
I should be happy for her.
yes, i am happy for her.
No, I am not sad.
All the best to you.
Its just over.
All over.
/stare at blank space, all gone.
*flew by @
8:22 PM
Sunday, May 04, 2003
//would you ever know?
What my heart wants, my actions did another way round.
What I need, I just can't get it.
I know you are feeling the worst,
but you ain't alone.
Yes, you aint alone.
I don't want to make it worst for you.
I may smile but its only the appearance.
But deep inside is so different.
How I wish I could rip my heart out,
How I wish I could just hit myself.
What I want to do, I can't do it.
How I wish I could throw all the things that are stopping me away,
No, I can't.
I can't run away.
Every problem always has a solution.
Running away is not a solution.
But I can't seem to find the right key to the right solution.
I hid the problems, I hold it til my heart can't take it anymore.
My heart is so so heavy, so so heavy.
My mood swings, my friends have to take it,
I'm sorry.
I can't walk, i can't walk..i can't walk..i can't walk...
Your touch, your kisses, your warmth,
your love, your smile, your eyes,
the happiness, the pain, the memories
How I wish I can feel it now.
Things are stopping me.
I ain't telling it.
And you,
Do you know the whole story?
Or you only heard hers?
You said you are my friend, but you ain't behaving like one.
Have you ever
Ask how am I feeling?
Ask am I'm okay?
No, you didn't. you didn't.
Do you know i'm having shits in my life,
Do you know that why am I so afraid?
Do you know the reasons behind it?
No, you don't.
All you want is for me to make a decision.
I told her to move on, I didn't ask her to wait.
But she stayed.
You make me look as if i'm sucha a bitch, I'm know i am.
Me and ur friend is different from you and her.
Please don't make it look as if it was so similar.
Yes, its my fault. its my fault.
But I really miss her. who don't?
Do you know it hurts to see her in pain,
do you know it hurts so badly.
I'm living in a hell.
NOT HEAVEN
And you,
I got loads to say,
but words doesn't seem to come out,
I wish to be in your dream
to tell you everything.
But it seems impossible.
I got my reasons,
All the best to you.
ARGH...
I don't need your pity, your understanding...
I just want to say how I feel.
I don't want to make myself look so pity.
WOULD YOU EVER KNOW??
NO, YOU WUN.
ONLY ME
//f.a.r.k_o.f.f
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