//sometimes I hope to die
What did I do to receive all those news and treatment.
Why does it all comes from people I once loved, cared or cherished.
I just dunno how to receive all those.
I'm not the strong girl that I was used to be.
I'm not the girl that could stand up for myself anymore.
[yesterday]
Monks was bad,
to see things that I dun wanna see.
But that was personal. Is just my lil toopid feelings.
I was happy for Nix, she found someone. =)
Thanks beat, cre and Jess
to come down and surprise me when I was down.
Sorry for those rubbish that I was saying.
I just got so crazy.
Thanks Kel and Steve for accompanying me.
Prayer:
"Lord I need the strength now.
To go on with life that you had just plan for me.
My legs are weak, I can't walk anymore.
My heart is too fragile to take anymore news.
Lord, I'm asking too much but I just don't know what to do.
I don't know how to deal with all those matters.
I messed my life.
Now loneliness is my companion.
Images appeared, flashing back.
Sometimes I hope to just end my path of life."
//things goes fine in the afternoon..
//things goes so wrong now.
*flew by
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11:10 PM
Friday, April 18, 2003
*b_i_t_c_h keep on smiling.
*bah, I'm happy, really happy.
The only way to communicate with my mum
is SMS, the key to my freedom. =)
Haha, I can go out today. Just today. LOL
I don't have to sneak out already but she promise no cash.
*ARGH No Money but I'm still happy.
At least I can go out. =)
Sneak out in the middle of the night,
went drinking with my fren at my condo there.
Drank one bottle and my face goes red like a tomato.
*blush hehehe..
Tomatoes, tomatoes,
My face look like a tomato.
*back to the topic. *hits herself.
Talking about my life,
my life is a real mess..
But I ain't gonna give up
I'm going to pick things up and enjoy myself til my dying days!
And when I look back times, I will be please with my life. =)
Tonite monks.
See u today.
You should see me smiling,
If i am not smiling, something has happen. LOL
My maid going to church, my brother is going out.
Left me alone at home with no food.
Should I go out or in the evening??
To save money. I'm still thinking.
I miss her
I miss these ladies:
ash//nix//nickee//jill//vern//pau//pat//carrie//beatrice//germaine//sharleen//chups//irene
I miss those bungs: (LOL)
jay//kel//jovin//jyen//nikk//karen//jess//cre//cj_//aj//sheryl//weiningx//wei//elaine
Many lar. But I really miss them. Haven been catching up.
Bitching session ladies??
I'm still happy. Today is a happy day. =)
*bold doesn't mean anything. Design only. =)
*flew by @
11:37 AM
Thursday, April 17, 2003
Mood: Super Super Angry.
//feels like eating my mum up!!
I tot I might be nicer to my mum,
I could go out tmr.
*Roar..
No, she said no.
WADEVA.
Early in the morning, we are already shouting at each other.
I hate my mum, I hate hate my mum.
I just said I hate sch, den she said,
"Dun study lar.."
Den i said, "FINE!"
*BaNG! the door slammed.
[r e b e l . g i r l]
I have a plan, I'm going to sneak out of my hse tmr night.
I dun care my mum.
I tot of leaving home but it is silly. So that is out!
I'm going to act as if i am sleeping.
My bro is going to help me.
If my mum finds out, I dun care man.
I'm really angry. REALLY ANGRY.
You can't expect me to stay at home rightx?? *whines
-
Had three periods of lesson, and "ring.."
We can go home early due to the speech day.
I'm still thinking if I should go back to PL to visit my old schmates.
Miss them~ BUT I'M STILL ANGRY WITH MY MUM
//angry
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//what good is a heart by code red
I told you how I felt
I told you what it meant
But I still haven't changed your mind
I know that you're afraid,
You're frightened of the pain
But you can let down your guard
Cause when we run, we hide
We deny what's inside
Chorus
What good is a heart, if you're not gonna use it?
What good is your love, if you're too scared to choose it?
If your heart is beating, then it's for a reason
If you're not even willing to start, what good is a heart?
Don't make the same mistake that people often make
And miss out on a chance for love
You've got to make your move, you've got to make it soon
Cuz you're dying inside
Cuz I'm a man, but I cry
I have fears, I won't lie
Chorus
Come on baby, you know it
Girl anyone who looks can see that I'm right
There's a chance, we should take it
Or regret it for the rest of our lives
Chorus
*flew by @
11:05 AM
Wednesday, April 16, 2003
//back.to.blogger.again
I somehow lost the touch of blogger.
Pls mind this lil cheryl.
You should be glad that I'm back now!
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I got grounded by my mum. I can't go out! ARGH!
This friday is Good Friday and I can't go out.
I hate my mum!!!
Sat and sunday I can't go out.. How miserable
I still got one more month for my mid year exams. So fast!
Stupid school
Stupid mum.
WATS MORE?
Why am I so down of luck this year!?!?!
*roar
-
Something is missing but I choose to ignore it.
This life is what I chose, no one force me to do it
I should be happy with what I chose.
Maybe I'm just not used to it.
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//back.with.blogger
*flew by @
4:09 PM
